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in which the creator decides now would be a good time to whore herself around.

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▲ AIM : FMLSTEFF
▲ ALTERNATIVELY: you can inbox me. i don't bite. tasha does but i don't. what.

▲ THREADING: i don't have a thread limit. i'm british so i run on the gmt clocks bitcheess. if you want to thread with me at any point just shoot it out there. i probably won't say no because i'm too polite. okay. alternatively you can meme with me and demand my attention by linking me. once again, i'll probably hop on that shit because i'm polite and cool. love me love me. okay thanks bye.

also what's with the brackets like what. i'm a forum role-player we don't do brackets but hey if you do i'll try and embrace them and love them like my own. love you.

▲ KISS WITH A FIST -

broken_arrow - aka the post filled with angst and broken feels ~~

▲▲ THIS AFTERMATH, I KNOW YOU DIDN'T ASK FOR THAT -

broken_arrow - in which natasha is plagued with compulsive truth telling. sigh.

▲▲▲ JUST KEEP FOLLOWING THE HEARTLINES -

broken_arrow - aka so much fluff. sleeping beauty. tony snark and some light fluff smut because feelings.

▲▲▲▲ I'M NOT CALLING YOU A LIAR -

iseducetherichguy - william brandt who? natasha throws nesting dolls and william brandt is too confused. they snuggle. clint makes waffles. it's confusing for everyone involved.

natasha tries not to remember her time spent in the red rooms.
but when she does it curls over her in roils of rage.
even though it was another reality. another period of her life. another person.

because natasha battles with her demons every day. she never stops fighting.
the voices are always there, her mind always alive with noise.
it's like flicking through radio frequencies, never settling on a channel but hearing constant fragments of sentences.

it's why she sleeps with a light on - because she's terrified of the shadows in the dark corners.
it's why she sleeps with a gun or a knife - because she's ready come what may.
it's why after a mission she doesn't want to be alone - because sleeping next to something solid and warm keeps her grounded.
it's why she puts so much on the line for her partner - because he's the only one that ever gave her a choice instead of telling her what she should do.

it's how she became natasha. it's how she found the strength to push the others out of her head and swallow back their voices.

but she can still feel them, as much as she can feel the pressing weight of night on the widows.

she's both simple and complex. simple because all she wants is one night of unbroken sleep where she doesn't wake up screaming for gods she never believed in. and complex because no matter what, they're always there watching through her eyes, waiting for her guard to drop, waiting for the fog to cloud over.

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